I started my day yesterday with OT. It was time for a reevaluation and the news wasn't what I hoped to hear.
I cannot fathom not opening my arm fully for the long term.
There IS a solution.
The solution is to wear the brace Laura, my OT, created for me.
That was MUCH easier to do before real life came into play. It is bulky and cumbersome. BUT, it ensures my arm stays as straight as it can. I am going to have to figure out how to wear it while going about my day. I just HAVE to.
I followed OT immediately with a massage. Jen is who put it into perspective for me. She said I was training to get back to work; which I have. I am working four days, a half day on Wednesday - I am gearing up for the full day. And, my position at the desk requires I write, and erase, and write some more. So, as much as I am taking a step up in my treatment, I am also going backwards.
I went home, showered, put on my makeup and headed to the salon. I asked Leslie to blow out my hair for me as I knew my arm would be shot for the day.
On the way down to the salon I had a pity party in the car.
I walked into the backroom at the salon and started to cry. The back room is our "safe room." It is the only place you can legitimately have a nervous breakdown, or be angry, or cry. So, imagine that I had said breakdown with four women sitting there. The mama instinct kicked in. There is nothing better than having a crying jag and knowing people will help you and offer you a tissue.
Today I am working at the salon.
When I get home I will welcome the brace. I. Will. Get. A. Full. Range. Of. Motion.
Damnit.
xo
- My range of motion for straightening my arm isn't improving.
- My bending range is improving minimally.
- However, my ease of doing things is much better.
I cannot fathom not opening my arm fully for the long term.
There IS a solution.
The solution is to wear the brace Laura, my OT, created for me.
That was MUCH easier to do before real life came into play. It is bulky and cumbersome. BUT, it ensures my arm stays as straight as it can. I am going to have to figure out how to wear it while going about my day. I just HAVE to.
I followed OT immediately with a massage. Jen is who put it into perspective for me. She said I was training to get back to work; which I have. I am working four days, a half day on Wednesday - I am gearing up for the full day. And, my position at the desk requires I write, and erase, and write some more. So, as much as I am taking a step up in my treatment, I am also going backwards.
I went home, showered, put on my makeup and headed to the salon. I asked Leslie to blow out my hair for me as I knew my arm would be shot for the day.
On the way down to the salon I had a pity party in the car.
I walked into the backroom at the salon and started to cry. The back room is our "safe room." It is the only place you can legitimately have a nervous breakdown, or be angry, or cry. So, imagine that I had said breakdown with four women sitting there. The mama instinct kicked in. There is nothing better than having a crying jag and knowing people will help you and offer you a tissue.
Today I am working at the salon.
When I get home I will welcome the brace. I. Will. Get. A. Full. Range. Of. Motion.
Damnit.
xo
