When your ego, super-ego and id collide, it causes pain, (sometimes manifested in body aches, case in point) it causes crocodile tears, it causes occasional poor choices (food, in my case) and ultimately, it causes release and relief and a clearer path to where you hope to be.
Throughout this adventure I call MY life I have definitely taken some risks. Some small. Some not so small. I would never call my life a darn shame, but there are certainly moments I can recall and think to myself, "Ah, I wish I had done (fill in the blank) instead of (fill in the blank)." Hindsight is always so gorgeously 20/20, isn't it?
If life was easy where would all the adventures be?
If you've known me a long time, and many of you have, you "know" my story; at least, the parts I have chosen to share. (I share a lot...) If you've found me through the wonder of the internet, you can piece together bits of it here and there.
My sister said to me once, "You hide your pain through laughter." A dear friend made the same observation of THIS blog earlier in the year. I think the day I decided to have my meltdown on my Me: On a Mission blog about my weight loss journey, is the day I decided to come clean on paper. Will my readers get my "whole" life here? Nah. You wouldn't want it all, although some of it is downright hilarious...years later. Some of it is still deadly painful. And frankly, some of it is mine.
As I said the other day, I expect to live a good, long life. And I expect there are zillions of adventures left to have. I am glad you are here to join me on the journey. And when the kids all get older, I WILL write that book I've mentioned.
Go forth, have an adventurous day, filled with laughter, love, maybe a few tears, and a risk or two.
PS - I remind myself of this every. single. day.
Turn up your speakers and sing along.