Depression lies. Depression sucks. Depression makes you feel like you are alone even if you are surrounded by people who care about you. I wrote about it HERE.
Jenny Lawson, The Bloggess has written numerous posts on depression, sometimes while she in the midst of a particularly harrowing episode. THIS post is well worth your time.
[UPDATED to include THIS post from Jenny as well.)
The bitch about depression is it can't be seen with the naked eye.
People who are seemingly happy often suffer from depression. It is a lonely disease that plays mind games with you.
When the meds work, EVERYTHING is fine.
And so you stop taking the meds.
Because, of course, everything is fine.
And then everything is fucked up.
As alone as you feel, you are not.
Somewhere there is someone who adores you. There is someone who loves YOU. There is someone SO willing to lend you the shoulder to cry on, the hand to hold, the ear to listen.
I promise this.
They will be with you and take you by the hand, if need be, to a doctor, a therapist, the park, the beach.
Last night Jenny posted this link to Wikipedia with the numbers for Suicide Crisis Lines around the globe. I know I have readers outside of the USA, and god knows, depressions doesn't give a shit where you live, so I am linking it here too.
You. Beautiful, amazing, radiant, talented, unique, fantabulous you have SO MUCH to offer this world.
LOCAL HELP available from MY therapist, Cathy, and the staff
The Lighthouse Retreat & Wellness Center
1392 Albany Post Rd
Croton, NY 10520
I hope to God it doesn't rain
Everyone's got problems and I know
I've got mine
But at least I've got the stars with me