Pain requires a wall. We build it brick by velvet brick. Most of the time, we aren't even aware we've built it. It's a protective mechanism and we sometimes have to fight our own thoughts to remove it.
My wall is ALWAYS my body. Some convoluted part of me thinks that if I am larger than I should be, I will protect myself from pain, hurt and sadness.
Let me state to you, loud and clear, this is bullshit.
Intellectually I realize this.
Emotionally, I eat away my pain.
It is mighty tasty, but it doesn't stop pain.
Exercise is the antidote.
Eating right is the bigger antidote.
Hence, this blog.
The bricks are hard to knock down. They have been built tirelessly over the years. I am so tired of them being here. My journey continues as I knock them down and work to keep them down.
We can work on it together.
Who could ever expect to fight it when she
Builds that wall